Life and Memories, Memories and Life

Strange Dream

2012-01-30T11:21:00.003+08:00

In my dream just now, I was running towards a bus stop, in front the bus stop there is a big road, the opposite side of the bus stop mean the place that I'm standing got rock slide. Luckily, I managed to jump a little bit to the right so I escaped the big rock to fall on me. However, my brothers were reach the bus stop, there was a hill behind the bus stop, and so all the rocks fall onto the bus stop. I was so afraid that this is 2012, but I think and think again, if this is not 2012, then what is that mean? Should it be I feel that nobody is beside me now? Will I ever get support from anyone?

Crap without Meaning

2012-01-15T04:18:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, I had finished 'When Heaven Burn' and I cried. Woah! How sad is the feeling of flashback related to something that you cannot forget. It is our memories. From childhood to adulthood. It means a lot to an individual but not others. I understand what I feel, but do you really understand how I feel? Even though I understand how I feel, sometimes I can't describe it.

Piece by piece, it flash through my mind, I don't know what I want to share. It's hard to understand one's mind. I can't even control my own mind. =/

A Letter to Myself

2012-01-15T04:00:00.002+08:00

I don't want to sleep, I feel like going to do something I like. But I wish there is someone who can accompany me to do so. Like going for a hike? If I willing to step out one step, I think I can even do it alone. I just can't do thing alone. Sigh! This is the worst behavior I never throw away until today.

Another thing is, song is used to express feelings. Do you understand the feeling of your friends? Imagination plus a song, can you feel your friend's feel when you mix the two things? I want to talk about this actually, but I don't want to blame anyone for not knowing the deep feeling of another. Nobody is perfect. Even a doctor will never know another person thought. Just stop talking about your feeling towards something you don't like instead of continuing telling others about your "negative" opinion.

Sometimes, I just can't stop thinking about my past. I know past is not a reason for us to run away from reality or from our life. But I am just a normal human, I trying so hard to forget about it. But I not really willing to let go. It's what I left in my memories, my memory for me to remember who am I and what I lost.

Crapping all these and nobody will understand what am I crapping. Haha! This blog is really for me myself only. =/

A place for me to talk about my thought? Anyway, all of these are just things that I telling myself. It means nothing to anyone else but just me.

名与利

2012-01-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

阿名哥，为什么你有这么多的粉丝，每天追你追个不停？
我把你追啊追，追得我好累。不想再继续追下去了。
好累。
都该是时候换换我的风格，是时候去追寻人生，好过追你这没用的东西。

阿利哥，你就不好，天天找别人陪你就是偏偏没找上我的门儿来。
好不公平。

我决定！时机到了。。。该追寻人生!

A Good Dream from Santa Claus

2011-12-24T18:06:00.002+08:00

Just now I got a dream, I was moving into a big building belongs to TARC. Should it be a hostel? I think so. It is big, got 4 floors! It was totally empty when I first walk in.

Ground floor has few connected rooms, got kitchen got bathroom got bedrooms and so on. I was given a big room, inside got 2 bed, BIG bed! Another one is for JIN WEI. lol! My classrep now. Both of us shift into that hostel together.

I am so happy at last I can move into a place that belongs to me. When I think of I am going to be alone later when they back home, I comfort myself I also got plenty of places can go.

Go back outside, look around the building. From no people, second floor 3rd floor n 4th floor start appearing shadow. =.= SHADOWS!

Look at ground floor, NOTHING! Then, again look up there. GOT human. Owh! Look ground floor again, got human too now. LOL!

Then I wake up from my dream. I wanted to move out from my house so badly? Haha! Maybe.

Idiot's Thought

2011-12-19T20:39:00.003+08:00

2am where do i begin?
Crying off my face again...
The sound of loneliness,
Wants to follow me to bed..

Argh! The feeling is too strong until I got to admit you know how i feel recently..
Sick, now can concentrate on my work? Or should I still PLAY = =! SAD! Cant control myself..

Happy to Eat But Sad to Share

2011-06-18T20:39:00.002+08:00

Wanna share something small in Twitter but i dunno my twitter acc login id.. so sad.. Smile this song is really good, I can feel the happiness in it but I dont have the happiness within the song.. I am having my dinner alone now in front of my laptop.. I asked something but I got no response from anyone in the house.. So HappY to have my dinner AlonE.. This is THE REASON WHY I-I-I-I Smi-i-i-ile...

A Letter to YOU, The ONE who looking at US

2011-06-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

Life is not as easy as everyone can imagine.. Especially when you're having financial problem from your relative.. The one you love, you would share everything with him or her.. Even though that is a super deep hole which you have to step in and you do not know when you can climb back up to the surface.. It is hard to open your mouth to tell something that cannot be solved within a short time.. But that is not the solution.. Everyday, everyone close to you will have to suffer a lot especially your parents..

What can I do to help?!
Nothing.. Everyday hear the story, I can only feel pain deep in my heart.. There is nothing else I can do.. If I can take out that amount of money to help, maybe I can temporary solve the problem.. But, more and more problems will arise and I do not know how to solve the problems that will be coming to me..

Hopeless and Restless days.. Even though my life is good and everyday I live happily, but I feel like dying all the times.. Financial problem, can money drop from the sky?! How good if money drop from the sky?!

When you are hopeless yet you got to hear your friend tell you how he spent his money or how much he can have from parents or relatives, it makes me feel so envy and jealous.. Jealousy, can I use that as a reason for me to do something bad?! I really feel so hopeless to life.. But, who knows my future.. Maybe I can help them in future?! The problem is can the victims survive till the last second?!! I feel so unfair.. I never hope anything from YOU.. But I really hope YOU can help my aunt to pass this.. My cousin can't do anything until the problem behind that is solve.. Pls, I beg YOU.. Help them..

Movie Night with Frens

2011-06-09T21:57:00.003+08:00

Kahwai, Wong, Marcus, Leo, CP, PC, Nee, CPM & Poh! Hey! Enjoy the night with u guys! Even though Insidious is kinda ... But I enjoy a movie night with all of us gather together! Can we have another try for this kind of activity be4 PC move?! haha! Love ur house weih PC! Dont go club or Dont go pub! We go for MOVIE NIGHT!

I Need Suprise

2011-06-07T15:25:00.002+08:00

Tuesday, suppose there is 1 lecture class at 4pm to 6pm.. I dont feel like going so I attended it ytd.. But, now I regret.. I made my tuesday too free, free until I dunno what to do and spent an hour listening the same song which telling me how I feel.. Am I too active?! My brain just keep telling me find something to do, 1 sec be4 this i on fb.. 1 sec later i off it.. 2 sec later I feel like on my fb again.. so I on fb again.. and cloose it again in less than few minutes time.. What am I doing... Am I bored till like this?! There is a lot of stuff waiting for me to complete them... But my mood isn't here with me.. What can I do to recover my good mood?! Someone pls talk to me.. Tell me some joke tell me some lame joke or tell me some secret to make me feel suprise pls...

FreeDom

2011-06-07T15:11:00.002+08:00

Lying on my bed, watching at the closed window..
Sound like im in jail, well there's no difference whether im in jail or in my house..
I want freedom.. Free from any burden, free from any perfect thoughts about my life..
Free from anything that I care so much.. My heart is so soft...
In movies, ppl can just walk away and explore their life.. But I cant coz my heart is already linked with everyone who step into my life...
I miss everything I care.. When can I feel free and run away from here?
This song sings my mood now..

林宥嘉 – 想自由

每個人都缺乏什麼　我們才會瞬間就不快樂　
單純很難　包袱很多　已經很勇敢　還是難過　

許多事情都有選擇　只是往往事後我才懂得　
情緒很煩　說話很衝　人和人的溝通　有時候沒有用　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由　

一路守著追著美夢　踏上屋頂意外跌得好重　
不覺得痛　是覺得空　城市的幻影有千百種　

就算愛也會變冷淡　可是現在抱的你是暖的　
我不曉得　我不捨得　為將來的難測　就放棄這一刻　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由

Wake up N Dream

2011-06-03T09:30:00.002+08:00

I think I wake up too early today.. Nothing to do now!
Looking at my lappy, I only can dream..
My mind only got 5 words..
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
Sad...

Shouting

2011-06-02T17:19:00.003+08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Down Thoughts

2011-06-02T01:24:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just decided to do something so that I won't feel so lonely, but happiness won't last long and it is gone in a blink of an eye.. Companions made me feel like i'm not alone but some harsh words or unfriendly treatment would definitely bring me down.. I have fallen again.. Down and down and down.. Maybe I don't deserve to have such a full time caring heart, becoz it is definitely a waste if such a good heart is with me.. I should donate it to another person who has more friend or caring friend compare with me.. Well, how to train myself to shut up?! I just can't control myself to talk coz I don't like to be alone.. Everyday stay at home already knew how does it feel like, now at college or other places I hope I can enjoy the life I want rather than just forcing myself to shut up.. What should I do?! Maybe I should just practice how to shut up to see how's the "market" work...

ya suffering is optional

2011-05-31T11:07:00.002+08:00

thx ms chin for telling me that.. but 1 positive energy cant fight with strong negative energy inside me.. haha! gather more positive energy to purify me... i hope that day would come faster... coz i feel so suffer to live under this condition...

My Assignment - Hundreds Words Task

2011-05-30T22:55:00.003+08:00

A thought is appearing in my mind, posting a personal message mean what?! Mean I'm so eager to talk to somebody?! Or am I waiting for a reply?! Recently, I tried to find people to talk with me so that I can feel better, so that I can run away from loneliness.. But after that, I realized that my life is even more boring if I din't find anyone to chat with.. Perhaps talking to my blog is a daily routine now.. As in it is the only thing that allows me to talk... I'm so bored.. Bored till I'm so tired... Money is one of the factor that make me feel so bored with my life.. If I could have more money compare with now, I think I will be able to at least find some fun... Without money, without friends, without any entertainment, without any companions, I feel so tired of living..
Nose sensitive is getting more and more severe.. Every morning attend class and my nose make me feel uncomfortable... Feel like staying at home and rot faster... Luckily I still got 2 friends, artificial friends... LOL! There is one line i love it very much! 明明活得很好,却感觉快死掉.. I really like this.. Because it always tell me that I got such a good fate to survive until this age but my dead brain always feel like dying since it cant sense any companions around.. Sad case.. Suddenly watch back what I write up here, I realized that I should have already done my PA coursework if all of these are related to PA coursework.. So many words up there! Sad! Cry also alone.. Mean I'm a real loner?! Personal message.. A way to express myself to myself.. =) Laugh always, laugh louder, so that I can hear it and enjoy myself.. Haha! Funny =D I should spend my energy on my assignment instead of blogging which is another way to talk to myself..
So I should stop blogging and go sleep now! Night!

Funny Thought

2011-05-27T22:59:00.003+08:00

Inhumanity, I hope I can behave in this way...
So that, I can truely free from any burden...
So that, I dont have to look at the floor without looking in front everytime i walk...
So that, I can stop crying and be numb with everything i care about...
So that, I will be always standing without falling or bend my knee...
So that, I can survive when im alone...

When can I acquire this so extraordinary skill?! I really need it... =/

一个希望

2011-05-25T21:33:00.003+08:00

有好多好多的歌曲都有一至二句我想说的话。。
好想大大声唱出来！但是我在想，有几个人会听到呢？

Long Gas Story Teller

2011-05-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

Last week, its another history in my life..
I think it should be the fifth history that recorded with dark cloud,thunder n storm in my life..

I need someone to talk to... Talk about everything I wanted to talk and share..
I want to go sing k so desperately! It's because I want to share something that I not dare to voice out by singing it loud..

Last thursday, I have to say bye to 2 person.. The first person I said to is a bye forever which will never meet again.. Its a super duper down time to me.. However, the second one is totally opposite of the first.. Its a super duper happy moment we had and there is still chance for us to meet again in future.. Even though the chance is low, but its better than the chance is a ZERO..

Thx to F.I.R for releasing their latest album at this moment.. I love them coz their songs have accompanied me for these days which I feel so lonely.. Dear, thx ya for allowing me to hide for a week time.. I think it is time for me to see the sun.. So, it's time to stand up.. N open my eyes to see the sunshine..

Another thing that I would like to mention is.. Im not slow, but slowing down the speed allows me to enjoy more time with everything.. I very scared of losing something.. Once something even a dust that checked in to my life.. I hope it wont just checked out without care about my feeling..

Arghhhh! Im so indulge n enjoy in these songs... They are like a good fren hugging me and just won't let me go away! I hug everything and don't wanna let go.. Can I?

迟迟

2011-05-04T23:25:00.004+08:00

迟迟迟迟迟迟迟迟迟。。。

我的人生都来得太快还是我反应得太迟？

总是离不开迟这一个字。。。

有哪一次我会把握准时机或比时机来时早呢？

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-04T23:25:00.001+08:00

祝天上与天下的妈妈母亲节快乐。。。

Time

2011-05-04T23:09:00.001+08:00

If the time can rewind, I hope I won't be like the kid in that video..

Im worse than the kid..

I only know about cry after it happened..

Triple Sorrow

2011-04-15T18:59:00.002+08:00

Just now I dream that I asked my dad again about something,
then I heard Lithium this song 3x which stack together..

Am I this sorrow until I cant release a thing?!

The first was in my dream and I was driving the car n park it outside my house,
the car is playing Lithium..

The second one was in my dream and in my room the computer is playing it...

but I off the one in my comp and I still can hear 2 songs playing..

1 is my car outside there, another 1?!

Its in reality! I can hear my computer playing the song now! In reality...

早上真好

2011-04-07T06:35:00.002+08:00

刚刚出外走了一会儿，感觉清新凉爽！好比家里那冷气机呢！
回到家，打开房门。。我惊觉这儿热得够力！还是外面好！
好想好想出外走走。。
出外走走，即能省钱也能爱护环境。。
好过在家开大冷气睡到不知什么样来了。。

回房后，不想入睡，好喜欢这孤单一人的时候，反正跟平时没舍两样吗。。
好挂念外面那冷冷的风。。
它们真好，我走出去才那一会儿，它们都围绕着我。。
那一会儿那么长的时间，它们都在陪伴我左右。。
空闲的我看见了蜘蛛！我的天敌阿！
二话不说，拿起了武器一下便送了它们一程。。
八位兄弟，好对不起。。

谁起床了呢？
最近啊，我都在自个儿说话，朋友们都去忙了。。

感觉

2011-04-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

这时这刻这分这秒，我的感觉失灵了吗？
感觉像被全世界背叛，被欺骗，被排挤，被冷落，被丢弃，被遗忘，被放逐。。
我真的自由了吗？

如何让生命有厚度？
如何让生命有高度？

有谁懂我在问什么？！

心思

2011-04-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

很对不起，实在抱歉。。
给所有关心我的人，一路来都帮我的人。。
对不起。。
或许有时候我做错了，但我也逼于无奈。。
有头发想做瘌痢？
有时候你想要的，很需要别人支持，同时，别人需要的，也需要他人的支持。。
何苦呢。。

心思，
顾名思义就是说心里所想，心里所思，
只不过是一个人所知的事情，
别人想懂，
但是有心思的人往往会收起那资讯出发点，
没了源头，想了解那人的想法真难！

一个人想，一个人思，
一个人做，一个人跟，
诺有此事，幸福极了，
一个人想，一个人做，
望望身后，只见身影，
不要失落，也别难过，
可能他人也是这么过。。。

好想表达内心所想，
内心始终都在颤抖，
不安焦虑集中一身，
仿佛一生无法释怀。。

好多美丽的语言，但往往都被过滤一番。。
哪里能够听到心语呢？
我想哭，我想恨，想躲藏，想孤独。。

复杂，不想多想。。
简单，不敢相信。。
人啊人，真不简单。。

累了累了，谁可以来送我一程？

好想唱歌。。

谁人在这？来陪陪我好吗？

天蝎座性格最精确的解析

2011-03-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

一、朋友多 & 孤独

“有很多的朋友，可是“看似朋友很多，知心的却没有几个。”——这句话很深刻的形容了天蝎。

天蝎很能说话，他们跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题，比如今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥；今年服饰的流行趋势之类的…… 可是注意了，他们都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事——随便他们跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。关于自己的事，他们几乎是不说的，就算说，也是说一些跟自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解天蝎，他们便会很自然的把话题给扯开。

天蝎很自信，同时他们又很没有安全感。这是天蝎特有的矛盾。他们喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露——对于天蝎来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄，这样就失去了一定的优势。

当天蝎感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或一个人郁闷着。天蝎也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切也不愿被别人抓住自己的把柄。所以，久而久之也就养成了习惯。

天蝎基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他们又总是很忧伤。天蝎总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩，但他们不会让别人发现。他们怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以天蝎很神经质、精神脆弱、容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西。

一般来说天蝎的孩子都很早熟。他们对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。天蝎并不是故意要掩饰自己——上面说过，这已经是一种习惯了。可是在外人看来，他们便成了虚伪的人。

二、花心 & 冷酷无情

天蝎是被众人所公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于天蝎的花心，真的不想再说些什么了，解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。

可是说起天蝎，就不得不提感情。天蝎这一生，似乎注定被感情牵绊，跟爱情纠缠一世。

很多人说天蝎并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：天蝎最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体。天蝎有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，天蝎只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。我想用一句话给天蝎的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂。

至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起……其实天蝎是最平和的星座，可以不发生的冲突，都会尽量避免。天蝎也很少跟人吵架，他们讨厌吵架，若是因为一些生活上的琐碎小事吵架，那么天蝎就在吵完的那一刻就会把这件事给忘了。

倘若天蝎真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话让天蝎实在不能再忍受。这时他们会很鄙视的看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉——有时甚至会不给你留面子地离开。那时恐怕你一辈子也别想再和他们和好——就算有的天蝎碍于面子与你再成为朋友，但是他们对你已经鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的“朋友”关系而已。

三、完美 & 简单

天蝎总是在追求着完美。当他们在某一时刻的做法起了争议时，虽然当时内心很跃然，可事后会不断的反思，直到心里想出完美的解决方法后才肯让自己休息。

天蝎也总是喜欢去做一些别人不会、不敢去做的事，他们并不是想显示自己或怎样，或许只是因为好玩。

天蝎的想法通常是很简单很单纯的。当他们做了某件事之后，人们就会认为他们就是那个样子了…… 天蝎会很潇洒的说不被人了解很好，也懒得去解释——因为就算解释也不一定有人会了解，可是内心却非常希望别人能够支持。

天蝎的内心极端的敏感，即便是过了很久，也会记得别人的一句话或一个眼神，因为他们时刻在检讨自己，时刻在追求自身的完美。

在面对这个与自己的理想不相符的世界时，天蝎有太多的无奈，所以他们也总是在逃避。用逃避来面对事情，似乎也成为了天蝎的又一个习惯。不到紧要关头，绝对不会放下自尊。即使在喜欢的人面前，他们也表现得默然，因为他们不知如何去引领这个人进入他们的心里面。他们本来就是内心极其矛盾的人，他们希望自己是完美优秀的，总想把自己最好的一面拿给别人看。

天蝎是非常向往自由的，可是内心也在崇尚着某个方向，天蝎很反复的内心世界在成长的日子里没人能体会。如此一来，天蝎就更矛盾了……在崩溃的边缘，没办法发泄，天蝎只能笑。

天蝎的笑很纯净，天蝎笑起来也很调皮。其实天蝎本来就是个很简单的人，任何的心计都只会弄巧成拙。

四、聪明 & 反复无常

天蝎一般都有个聪明的脑袋，跟其他的孩子比起来，天蝎似乎是很有优势的。所以，天蝎在幼年时，一般都很骄傲，有飞扬跋扈、不可一世的态度。

天蝎也自认比别人聪明，他们常常会用自己的标准去要求别人。天蝎凡事都有自己的标准和原则。天蝎没耐心，这是人们所共知的：你自己的事情自己解决，不懂的话去学去想。让他们把话再重复一遍，或许他们还可以保持绅士风度，若要让他们重复第三遍的话……

都说天蝎反复无常。最典型的一个画面就是：当所有的人都在很开心的大笑时，天蝎会突然沉默，然后独自一人走开……明明上一刻还很开心，下一刻就成了一副死鱼脸。

在上面有说到，天蝎经常会被莫名的悲伤笼罩。当这种悲伤排山倒海的压向天蝎时，他们真的会不知所措。不知该如何表达发泄出来，只能自己默默忍受。

天蝎的想法变得很快，总有很多鬼主意。可如果让天蝎一直呆在一个枯燥无聊的环境中，久而久之，天蝎便会失去自身原有的光泽，变得很平庸，没有想法、没有个性。

天蝎的思想也很有弹性，没有绝对的黑白之分。在评断事务时，不会主观地决定善恶黑白。因此，这样使天蝎的想法具有通融性，但这种弹性的思考有时会招致“意见模棱两可”的批评。

天蝎座的人才华横溢，拥有自由的思想和英明的决断力。不喜欢在一处久留，不会义无反顾地投入到某件事中。言语行动通常恰到好处，厌倦单调和枯燥的环境。如果能够利用意志力把自身的多种矛盾因素拧成一股力量，可将自身的优势发挥得淋漓尽致。

天蝎作为风相星座，就如同星相里面讲的那样，做事风风火火随意性大，通常是想到什么就去做什么，然而一段时间后又失去了兴趣……这个可能就是人们通常所说的“三分钟热度”吧。

天蝎是个比任何星座都怕寂寞的星座，天蝎的他（她）不能忍受一个人无聊的打发时间，更不能忍受一个人去吃饭。

天蝎又是一个忍耐力超强的星座，即使他（她）内心有多么的痛苦，他（她）也不会随便告诉别人，除非是天蝎的他（她）认定了你是值得信赖的，能够帮助他（她）的人，才能知晓他（她）内心深处的一些东西。

天蝎天生就是个矛盾的星座，他（她）通常会以乐天的姿态出现在公众或朋友的面前，给人留下的就是玩世不恭的印象。然而，一旦天蝎一个人的时候，自己内心的秘密才会通过感觉被表达出来。不是说天蝎虚伪，而是天蝎的性格决定了他（她）们的行为。

看了很多星相，也听很多人说过，天蝎就是花心的代名词：天蝎对待爱情就象对待游戏，爱情的游戏，他们百玩不厌，并且花样层出不穷。其实这个观点是非常愚蠢的。12个星座中我想多少都有一些人是花心的吧？就象社会里也有一部分是坏人，不能这么一概而论。或许说此话的人的运气不好，正巧遇到了个花心的天蝎，可这并能不代表所有天蝎都是花心的！

其实，很大一部分天蝎，对待感情是非常专一的。之所以给人留下“花心”的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的天蝎动真感情。不是天蝎铁石心肠，而是天蝎个性里面天生有一些忧郁与一些潜在的不自信，只是天蝎隐藏的很深入。一旦让天蝎动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，天蝎的天真、率直，外加丰富的表达能力，一定能让你获得很多快乐！

每个天蝎都有一个故事隐藏在心里，而且多数是不堪回首的往事。

天蝎是个念旧，又或者可以说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座。他（她）的故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的天蝎是脆弱的，也是坚强的。他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当做什么事都没有发生，这些都只是天蝎演给世人看的罢了……等到夜深人静的时候，天蝎内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以用一整夜去回忆之前所发生的点点滴滴；可以一整夜都沉浸在痛苦之中；可以一整夜坐在那里发呆……但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，天蝎马上便会从痛苦中抽身而走 ——你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的天蝎。

这就是天蝎，拥有双重性格的天蝎，一个在世人面前乐天、快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的天蝎。

我想，接触过天蝎的人都知道，他们是很会搞气氛的星座，只要有天蝎出现的地方就绝对不会缺少快乐。

天蝎是个把快乐带给别人，把悲伤留给自己的星座，请不了解天蝎的人不要再给天蝎扣上“花心”之类的帽子。不过你硬要扣也无所谓～花心就花心，这就是天蝎——自信、乐天、率直、忧郁。

天蝎的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切。

有人说我们花心，那只是我们没有真正的爱。当天蝎爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的。因为我们太敏感。

假如天蝎爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那么我相信他（她）永远都不会再爱了。当爱给过了一个人，他（她）便再没有能力再付出。

其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实有时连我们自己都不懂自己。我们很会伪装、很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感。

天蝎的爱，有谁能够真正理解。

A thought of Mine

2011-03-13T21:19:00.003+08:00

I wanna cry, I wanna die..
I just wanna run and hide..
I wanna stand, I wanna fight..
I just wanna win and strike..

People die people cry..
We will never have to cry!
We just have to lend our hands,
Try to walk along with them!

Throw away the hesitation,
Bring along your determination,
Walk into the suffocation,
And begin our purification..

Sleepless & Speechless & Emo

2011-03-13T13:24:00.005+08:00

Friday night(Saturday midnight), can't sleep.. Slept from 4.30am to 8.00am,
the whole day i just do my stuff i never fall sleep...
Saturday night(Sunday midnight), din't sleep.. Slept from 4.00am to 10.30am,
yesterday there was an event so din't sleep..
Now I wanna sleep.. Can I?!

There just too much of things that we can't voice out..
Perhaps we can just use our actions to prove that we can feel it..
I just want to cry right now..

给人一句话

2011-03-11T17:37:00.002+08:00

损人不利己的事别做，做了只会让人更加讨厌。。

Sorry...

2011-03-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

Sorry... The only thing I can do now is say sorry...
I lost control on myself...
This is the second time that happened in my diploma life...
I failed to have yours trust...

Time Flies

2011-03-06T22:37:00.004+08:00

This song represent my life after That Day =)

我是被你囚禁的鳥
已經忘了天有多高
如果離開你給我的小小城堡
不知還有誰能依靠

我是被你囚禁的鳥
得到的愛越來越少
看著你的笑在別人眼中燃燒
我卻要不到一個擁抱

我像是一個你可有可無的影子
冷冷的看著你說謊的樣子
這撩亂的城市容不下我的癡
是什麼讓你這樣迷戀這樣的放肆

我像是一個你可有可無的影子
和寂寞交換著悲傷的心事
對愛無計可施
這無味的日子
（我的）眼淚是唯一的奢侈

But NOW everything changed... =)

For My Only One Sweetest Dream

2011-03-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

I wanna see how moon shine
I wanna see how moon shy
I wanna see how moon cry

Let the moon see me laugh
Let the moon hug me tight
Let the moon watch me lie

Show the moon I din't cry
Show the moon I still alive
Show the moon I will survive

I hope the day disappear from my mind
I hope the day return to a normal life
I hope the day gone bye bye

Let the day passed and hide
Let the day owned and cry
Let the day crossed and say goodbye

Show the day a little bit light
Show the day a bag of love
Show the day infinity life

Life

2011-03-04T10:34:00.002+08:00

Life is so amazing huh! From an accounting student and we have to try many other things that we duno how they work or how to use..
Its awesome when we get to know something new and everytime I learn something I felt GREATTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
Yesterday, when I was exploring Windows Live Movie Maker with NM, I found the song I've been looking for so GOD DAMN LONG! Thx to Wong! Wong THXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!
Indulge to that song.. Just like drugs! Gosh! Save me!
I duno why I can be so Active early in the morning... AT THIS MOMENT..
LOL!
IMMA GONNA ROCKS MY DAY! See my frens TO9! HOOOOOOOOORAY!
Its like holiday mood ON!! LOL! But I can't keep this mood long..
JUST TODAY! I PROMISED!

Hope

2011-03-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

I wanna sleep.. Im so tired..
Can I sleep?? I have to work!!
I am confused.. Im so lost..
Can I rest?? I have to think!!
I wanna die.. Im so sick of living..
Can I die?? I have to live!!

I feel glad, coz u always there for me..
I feel safe, coz u always watching me..
I feel happy, coz u always care everything about me..
I feel sad, when u have forgotten to take care of urself..
I feel bad, when u work hard to make me feel happy..
I feel bored, when u are not beside me..

I'm Coming Home

2011-02-26T18:43:00.003+08:00

6.30pm, its raining outside..
My brother n his gf is going to airport now..
My brother gives me AUD 100 just now and he say he gonna take back when i transfer my money to him next time..
=.= I just realise I will lose a lot in future if I took the AUD 100..
BUT I TOOK IT!
So can I return him next time?! LOL

Just now, I take the umbrella from my mom when she is going into the car..
I feel like, I gonna be lonely again..
This kind of feelings is sooooooo evil..
They always occupy my mind..
Scared.. Cried.. Droped.. Dried..
This cycle used to repeat on my face when I think back my past..

Likes "I'm Coming Home" very very much!

"I'm Coming Home I'm Coming Home
Tell the world I'm Coming Home
Let the rain wash away, all the pain of yesterday
I know my Kingdom awaits and they've forgiven my mistakes
I'm Coming Home I'm Coming Home
Tell the world that I'm Coming Home..."

Bro n Sis in law! See both of you next Chinese New Year!
Now I hope time flies and reach that day by tmr.. LOL?
Feel like crying again..

Problem in my mind

2011-02-26T13:39:00.002+08:00

Just now, my brother told me a lot of ways to apply the scholarship..
My head is going to explode soon! There are few ways available for me right now.
He tell me that last time he only got 1 choice and the decision consumed lot of time!
N now i got few ways for me to try out.. which mean double or triple of his work?!
O.M.G
Sigh.. If i were born in a rich family,
I do not have to worry about the scholarship n i might be studying oversea right?!
Since this is my fate, should I go on or should I put it aside first?
I feel so nervous and I can't have my mind calm down a little bit..
What should I do?!

价值观

2011-02-24T16:14:00.004+08:00

只懂得投诉及批评不代表些什么，到了真正发生事情的时候才知道什么是失策！

This is human nature..
No matter who you are..
How saintly you are..
How clever you are..
How careful you are..
There will also got chances you do something wrong!

要是当初你关心多点，会搞到这么狼狈吗？

不懂的分辨是非黑白真正对错，好难对某些事物做出一个合理的结论。。
不同的人有不同的观念，无论谁对谁错，外人难以明白也不便评论。。

一個人臉上太多的笑是因為心裡有太多的痛

2011-02-24T11:16:00.002+08:00

Copied from other's articles.. Only what I wanted to say I post here..

總有一些人，他們看上去整天都很開心，嘻嘻哈哈的，

沒有煩惱，像個小孩，他們會說玩是我最大的樂趣，我很喜歡玩，我什麼都會玩。人多的時候他們臉上總掛著笑容，好多人都會羨慕他們，然而這其實是他們最悲哀的地方，他們不想讓別人看到自己難過的一面，更沒有能力一個人獨處，因為當夜深人靜的時候，他不知道一個人會發生什麼事，坐在窗前冥想走過的點滴。

沒有人讀的懂他們，想著想著貌似快樂的他們就會黯然流下一臉的悲傷，然後自己對自己說：「其實也沒什麼，命運吧！」所以他們就整天逼自己笑，以此來逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦!

他們貌似很堅強，因為在別人看來，他們什麼事都能微笑著去面對，但事實上他們長著世界上最脆弱的心靈，只是長期的偽裝使得別人很難發現他們內心深處的創傷。

他們其實非常孤獨，雖然看到他們時都是在跟一群人談天說地，那是因為他們實在不能承受一個人時的折磨！

他們只想簡簡單單、快快樂樂的活著，期待並且相信每個人給的笑容都是真心的，希望身邊的人都是真正的喜歡自己。即使別人小小的意見，也會另他們難過好久，他們真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜歡。因為，他們總是為別人想的很多，對別人總是比對自己好; 把能對喜歡的人好當做幸福，喜歡別人比喜歡自己多。

他們總是那樣，前一秒還傷心的流著淚，後一秒出現在朋友面前的時候，已經滿臉溢著燦爛的笑容。有人說他們是向日葵，是的，他們在意的人就像是太陽，在面對太陽的時候永遠是明艷的花瓣，而太陽照不到的背面，那悲傷藏得那麼好，不願被看見。

他們嚮往放縱自由的生活，卻必須為了誰很努力的朝另外的一個方向活著，很累很累，卻仍是心甘情願。離自己的夢境越來越來遠，不得不面對從未想過的爭奪和複雜，心慌、不知所措。只有面對最信賴的人時，才會卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼淚。

因為在他們心裡，笑就是開心，哭就是難過，接近就是喜歡，遠離就是討厭。

但其實不是，他們明白了，心好傷，眼淚就沒忍住。

哭過之後，笑笑得擦乾眼淚，說，沒關係，我可以做的很好的。

他們好像無所不能，好像總是不會有煩惱，好像什麼問題都能輕而易舉的解決，總是喜歡喜歡出現在流淚的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗著笑。而面對自己的問題，他們卻茫然無措，面對自己的悲傷，他們只會躲在人們看不見的角落裡慢慢由傷口越裂越大。

他們的想法非常簡單，說出來的就是心裡所想的，肚子裡不會拐七道八道的小彎，無心的話可能會引起別人的誤解。所以，請別記恨他們，他們從不願傷害誰，小小的錯誤就能讓他們懊悔很久。

心声谁听明？

2011-02-20T12:41:00.003+08:00

我今年二十七八岁，
偶尔会有寂寞，偶尔会挂念一个人。。。

我今年二十七八岁，
回想起曾经，
我们做了太多的错事，
走了太多的弯路，
我们总在后悔，
可是我们回不去了，
回不去那个纯真的年代了。

我今年二十七八岁，
明明很想哭，却还在笑。
明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。
明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。
明明很痛苦，却遍遍说自己很幸福。
明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。
明明放不下，却说她是她，我是我。
明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。
明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。
明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。
明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着着。
明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。
明明伪装着很累，却还得依旧。。。。。。

为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱，
即使很难过，
也会装得无所谓。。。
只是不愿别人看见自己的伤口，
不想让自己周围的人担心，
不想让别人同情自己。。。
只想在心底独自承受，
虽然心疼得难以呼吸，
却笑着告诉所有人“我没事的！”

然后静下来时，
自己便笑自己，
何必把自己伪装得那么坚强,
好像自己可以承受所有的苦难。。。
呵呵，好累。。。好累。。。

Link Ur Mind to My Mind

2011-02-20T12:14:00.002+08:00

Can you imagine that,
a person who hold his tears becoz he dont want to show others his weak side..
But when he met a person who he think their souls are linked,
he showed the weak side..
Its hard for a person to show their weakness in front of the others,
this is one of the human natural which they wanted to protect themselves so badly..
If they failed to do so, they might just ended their life easily..

Smile,
sometimes, people take it as a welcome;
sometimes, people use it to cover scar;
sometimes, people make it as a weapon;
sometimes, people abandon it and adopted tears.

N I wanted to use it to hide all the miseries..

圣经与神经之别

2011-02-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

无奈的心情给了我无穷的伤感。。。
如何把你从我心底彻底清除呢？？？
到底有没有任何极苦良药，
还是盲婆熬的盲婆汤可喝，
只为了一件事就足以把我推倒。。。
好累啊！好累呀！好累了！
不想再想，不敢再想，不要再想。。
只想忘记，只想忘掉，只想忘了。。
孙燕姿想当个隐形人，
叮当想做小小小小鸟，
艾薇儿大声高唱无知，
刘德华只叫杯忘情水，
我只想尽情畅快发泄，
是时候把我的头撞向墙壁倒头大睡！

Believe

2011-02-17T19:19:00.002+08:00

The first news I received few months/weeks ago, I felt like Thx god for giving my neighbour a chance..
Just now my mom tell me that my neighbour actually opened her eyes but she cant move..
Why... Why is this world so unfair?
She always cook or take something for my family.. She's a great neighbour..
But have to suffer from this kind of pain..
Why always not fair? What is moral?! I don't want to learn something like this..
Open ur eyes and tell lie.. WHY!?
Why we must learn how to lie?
Speechless..
What can i believe?!
Myself?!

Loner

2011-02-13T10:54:00.002+08:00

Just now when i was taking bath.. I'm scared..
My mind suddenly think of what if I become a loner again..
I don't wanted to become a loner again..

Everyday waiting someone to come across my mind
and everyday waiting the time to pass..
Everyday waiting something to motivate my body
and everyday waiting for tears to drop off from my eyes..

Scared to become a loner again..
That 5 years is my darkest nightmare...
It makes me unbreathable, unmotivated and hoping for a bright sunray from cracks in my room..

Embarrassing when ur fren drunk

2011-02-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

Today! 2 months anniversary!
I was drinking red wine at my fren's house and she was invited to attend the "opening work ceremony" by her mom's boss..

=/

My fren drunk and kept on hitting my head or whatever.. Feel like slaping her! = =
A day that ruin my reputation! haha!

30th January 2011

2011-01-31T23:28:00.002+08:00

My brother is back from Australia..
Wow! I went airport and drank my favourite WHITE CHOCOLATE in Coffee Bean!

I went Jusco with my family right after we picked my elder brother in airport..
Ish! I bought a long pants.. I think it is the same as the pants my fren has!
HOLYSHIT!

Then I bought 2 new shirt.. so so so ... EXPENSIVE actually is what I wanna comment bouts..

Damn! God always fool me.. I wanna run away! So here we go Avril Lavigne RUNAWAY!

"I JUST WANNA LOSE CONTROL!"
BLABLABLA... Lazy to copy the lyrics to here.. so.. CHECK IT OUT URSELF YEA! hehe..
Im talking to myself.. = =! Again n again! Everyday also like this...

Roundabout

2011-01-31T23:10:00.004+08:00

Today, I have driven my car into a roundabout and I was trapped in here for the whole day!

How to choose?

3 o'clock direction, continue my life like this...
Mean study at TARC, continue advance and then work in Malaysia..

6 o'clock direction, look for scholarship and go to Australia to further my study?!

9 o'clock direction, a way i duno how to go or where to go or where i can go..

12 o'clock direction, go out then come back to roundabout..
Mean put the thing aside and let it be until i finish diploma only come back to it?!

I cant go out from here until I recognize the road im going..
HOW!? What should i do?! I need more advice!

"OLD" Pals Sing K

2011-01-26T01:11:00.004+08:00

Woke up EARLY in the morning yesterday... Around 1100AM!
Very EARLY right?! Why? Yesterday, I went Low Yat with old pals..

There was something that made me say WA WOW OH all the time yesterday..

That was, originally I thought they(Arvin, Kahwai, Chiapei, Leo) were watching movie at TS..
But I was wrong and they were watching "Home Coming" at Pavillion..
OK! I said Oh n WA...

Then, we(Jon & I) were going to Sg. Wang around 1345PM after we parked the car in TS..
I thought we were late for the sing k session.. Then, Jon told me something amazed me..
I OPEN MY MOUTH BIG BIG N here I said OH WA WOW..
Becoz, they changed the sing k time to 1430PM.. OK!

1400PM, we reached Sg. Wang and I called Kahwai and asked where were they..
They were undecided where to have lunch... Here I said OH & WOW...

1410PM finally we met! OK! Then we were looking for a restaurant that can let us sit down peacefully and enjoy a lunch together..

Well Well Well! WOW WA OH WALAO WALAMAK everything out.. Except vulgar words of course! Im a good boy K!? hehe! 1430PM we sat down and enjoyed the meal peacefully until 1510PM..

OK!! Sing K! 1520PM we had finally arrived red box counter there..
My today's outing main point main location!

THEN SKIP SKIP SKIP...
We sang a lot different type of songs lol!
This is the first time Im getting more n more insane!
We even jumped up the sofa and wawawa!

1830PM Nobody coming to collect $$ from us.. Which mean we can continue!
Guess what.. 1830 we sang till 2100 only back! LOL extra 2 n a half hours!

The last song was "THE SHOW" and I sang damn loud when it came to I WANT MY MONEY BACK... I WANT MY MONEY BACK!!!!!!!! LOL

Then.... 2130PM we were going back to Cheras our area there to have our dinner..
Oh shit! 2200PM Burger again.. Haha! Morning 3 spoon of chicken rice, Noon 1 plate of marmite fish rice, Night a small black pepper chicken n a cup of milo ICE.. LOL

2300PM reached home! Woohoo... Then I called someone who worried me more than my dad n mom! Haha! My dear PaPa! Sorry larh dear, Im not purposely dont want reply you.. But I also dunno what time back or what time end of our sing k session hehe..
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry! haha not a song okay? coz i duno how to sing that LOL!

Then I COOK PORRIDGE until 0100AM then only go bath and so on! LOL!

Dear,
ı ǝʌo| noʎ
¡sʞɔɐnɯ

To Ling Gee Foo

2011-01-25T11:49:00.003+08:00

Bored.. Need some income to balance off my bored life.. =/
Looking for job after this CNY.. = =
Should end the old story book and begin my new chapters in my new book..
A book I call it "My Life Begin with a 2"..
Im expecting something new!
Pls come to me before my current book is end..
Make my life more colourful and ours story more wonderful! =)

Clean Clean Clean

2011-01-24T19:04:00.002+08:00

Today, Pamely came and help me in cleaning my table!
Yuck! Its dusty! I dint move or lend a hand..
I was just sitting there and watching her..
I was pXXXing gXXX and looking at her...
I wanna cry ady for her hard work..
Now my table is much more cleaner..
Thx dear! TQ! I LOVE YOU!

意义的定义

2011-01-23T10:47:00.002+08:00

对你来说，可能三只化骨龙是恐怖的。。
但是，有没有想过当三只恐龙都不再跟你说话的那种感觉？
身为一位舅舅/表舅的我，真的真的很怕这种不知名的感觉。。
今天，三只长大了的化骨龙也有在我家出现。。
平时他们出现时，都只会跟我弟弟玩。。
谁叫我弟弟最像小孩子长不大，一直陪他们玩玩玩。。
所以他们一来就只会找我弟弟咯。。
但是，至少一句称呼我也会觉得很爽。。
可是，不懂什么时候开始，连称呼都没了。。
这种感觉很孤独，很像什么都没了。。
今天还好，我刚好起床，还没下去便听到他们要回了。。
二话不说，床也没整理便跳了起来冲了下去。。
一来便穿上拖鞋走上前去对这车窗招手。。
幸好他们也有回应我。。
要不然，我真的觉得自己其实是名副其实地，彻彻底底地一个失败者！！

曾经，应为一些过错而当了第一次的失败者，现在，很想很想做回些事情来补救。。
更确实应该是赎罪。。
可是我却无动于衷。。
有时真的觉得自己冷血的呢。。

教教我，如何做个有意义的人。。

12Hours in Hell & 12Hours in Heaven

2011-01-20T15:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, from 12AM to 12PM,
I'm preparing myself to face my last paper..
I knew that I could'nt finish the tutorials..
I thought I can wake up at 6AM to continue my tutorials,
However, I failed and I off my alarm clock without conscious I think..
Nvm, when I wake up again at 645AM,
What's in my mind is, IM DEAD...

Then I quickly rush down and took bath and my breakfast without any feeling of hungry..
I lost my senses of smell and taste..

When I reach college, everyone is like so relaxing especially kahwei and cheexuan!!
I was still struggling and my mood was so unstable!
Perhaps I haven't done my revision
which I told myself that I should have done it at 6AM..

Then, "BEEP"x3...
Times to go into the exam hall and answer the last 5 questions in this final..
I was thinking, SIGHHH... Have to waste papers again.. LOL
I wrote and signed the stupid attendance slip, I opened the question paper..
My reply: "OH!" Finally I smile..

After 2 hours of writing nonsense and bullshits,
Suddenly something pop out from my mind, I was scared..
Perhaps Im still immature to have some thoughts like that..
I was so stupid idiot and I was a bastard who thought of something like that...
SIGHHHH...

3 hours of my final paper ENDED.. Ngee Ming was slow!
He tied his answer booklets slowly & gently.. LOL! I wanna go HEAVEN ady!

12PM, I steped out from Hell's gate and entered the train to Heaven..

12PM to 12AM is the first time that I feel so free and enjoy after exam..
Usually, after exam = time to sleep.. This is a basic general equation to me..
YESTERDAY it was totally changed!

I made a new equation which is RIGHT after exam = NO TIME FOR U TO SLEEP
On the same time, NO TIME FOR U TO SLEEP = TIME TO DO SOMETHING I WANT!
Thus, RIGHT after exam = TIME TO DO SOMETHING I WANT!

We went to Sunway and SKATE! Thx to BLUE SK from Group 29 who taught me how to spin!
Whoots! After the skate, I gifted something to my dear..
She was like .... I duno whether she like it or not.. Its too simple i believe..
(When I bought it I feel its simple..)
So, duno she like it or not! Haha!
After Sunway trip, we went TASTY POT!
I CAN SAY! THAT TASTY POT! IS REAL TASTY..
IN the sense of SALTY and ULTIMATE SALTYYYYY!

Know what?! I was blind yesterday night! Perhaps I was too tired!
I dint see my friends was driving straight N I just turn left into another way..
I thought I was following the right car all the time, but..
When Pamely told me that.. U sure u following the right car?! I say YA!
But she ask me to look at the car.. OMG I ask Ngee Ming..
SINCE WHEN THAT HUICHUIN TRANSFORM HIS CAR!!!!
Its ok.. Lucky we still manage to go back to the road we wanted to go..
After the U-turn, we turn left and were looking for TASTY POT..
I duno which junction to turn so then we go straight.. OH NO! FEDERAL HIGHWAY..
ARE WE GOING HOME OR TASTY POT!!
Lost again.. ZZZ
Luckily Pamely saw TASTY POT was on our left, then we looking for a way to go in..
But I only saw a signboard which wrote SHAH ALAM N a place
N ITS THE START of XX HIGHWAY!
I think I was so blur during that moment!
Luckily we still manage to turn back to the right place..

Kahwei's mom join us for dinner! Haha! I thought that was a dinner for Lai's Family.
Because all of them bully me n accuse me!! OH MAN! Come on!
They deny and telling me that I think too much.. = =
Even Pamely also bully me.. Sad case..
ITS OK! LETS EAT!

After the dinner I sent Pamely home, I sent her to the door there..
I was so scared to see her mom.. Like I had done something to her daughter! haha!
I did! I dated her daughter right?!
HOWEVER/LUCKILY her mom is not there then I back to my car and drive NM CP n LY home..
3 SAMPAT fellow sang songs in my car.. N i JOINED their PARTY.. LOL!

12AM+ I reach home... Thats the end of my 24Hours of 2H Trip.(Hell & Heaven Trip)

NOW, I mean the next day of the end of my final.. I AM THINK........
Next SEMESTER!
MORAL N ETHICS why the hell are we wasting time on this kind of things?!
Its totally useless to me!
A human doesn't need knowledge like that..
But knowledge on how to use their brain in doing things will be the right subject!
ISN'T IT?!
(I AM JUST CRAPPING!) IGNORE ME K? haha!

Cry

2011-01-17T20:26:00.005+08:00

I just realise that...
Tears will not dry easily...
It will remains for a moment..
Is is wanna show me that sometimes,
things won't just go back to the time before it happens,
and one can only looks back on the trace that they left behind?

Moody

2011-01-17T20:14:00.002+08:00

When something is gone and won't come back..
One will cry..
What for crying?
Wrong already then cry.. But it still won't recover..
Time won't go back.. Scar is still there..
Cry and regret..
Tears drop and dry..
Dry and drop again..
The cycle is repeating, when we really grown up,
then only we know and we can use the line:
"I know what am I doing.."

12.12.2010

2010-12-14T23:27:00.002+08:00

12.12.2010 is the first day...
Owh O!
Someone is following me! She don't let me go! Someone HELPS! =)

”原本“就没有心的玩偶

2010-12-08T23:45:00.004+08:00

不懂为什么，我觉得自己就像一个被人抓得紧一紧的扯线玩偶。
他人，喜欢就捏，喜欢就打，喜欢就拿针插几下。
有时，喜欢就讲，喜欢就骂，喜欢就什么都说下。
不止，喜欢就踩，喜欢就踏，喜欢就踢多它几下。
玩偶就是这么生存的吗？

每样事物不是应该都得到公平的对待吗？

可以公平一点吗？上天就是这么不公平。

有的人，光明正大大条道理的骂人；
有的人，暗地里偷偷地痛苦地申诉。

有时候，想要骂人还得顾及后果，就好像，你说我准备得不够妥当所以才会麻烦到朋友，
但是，你一定没想到骂了人之后，还不知，你也在数落着自己的不够妥当吧？！

另一方面，有一些话好想问清楚，可是，我不放心。
因为，我担心是我一厢情愿而已。

最后，不管怎样都好，我也好歹是个有感情的人，我也需要他人的谅解及了解。
脆弱的心灵一碰即碎，多坚强的心也有破碎的一天。

你一步一步逼前来，我一步一步往后退。。。
悬崖就在我身后，我宁愿踏出我的第一步！
勇敢地往那无尽的大海跃下去。。。

一二三四五六七再来一次毙了你

2010-11-29T17:17:00.003+08:00

无论人家对我做什么都好，不论是好的或坏的，我都可以接受！
但是有一种侮辱是我无法接受的。。。
要是想要拒绝，一句话好朋友能明白。。。
但是,几句话可能造成无法挽救的场面。。。
不想做，想拒绝，千万别用你要拒绝的人来做理由。。。

下次，

等等，你还想有下次？
慢慢等吧。。。

人家老虎爱把自己装成猫你却要他变回老虎，找死？
多一句，别在教会我一个生字后，一直做那生字的例子给我看！

分享一首歌，我真的希望自己可以成为一位流浪者。。。
F.I.R 流浪者之歌

流浪是牧羊人的方向晴天阴天或是雨天
总不过问是谁的眼泪流到最远的地方

九月的微风吹得我好痛蒲公英在飞翔
没有了方向风中的你轻轻说声要离去
我的天空永不会永不会放晴

流浪是牧羊人的方向晴天阴天或是雨天
总不过问是谁的眼泪流到最远的地方

寂寞的野火染红了天空
哪里才有我停留的角落

从此以后放逐自己找不回笑容

流浪是牧羊人的方向晴天阴天或是雨天
总不过问是谁的眼泪流到最远的地方

流浪是牧羊人的方向晴天阴天或是雨天
别再过问此刻多伤悲就到最远的地方

不想当乞丐的理由编

2010-11-20T13:14:00.008+08:00

人人都说,
有早知, 无乞丐,
早知今日, 何必当初..
自古以来, 改变初衷往往只带来无限悔意..
现在, 我又开始为自己所做的第二决定而感到不安..
这一刻, 仿佛所有的焦虑与烦恼同时找上门来了..

我又错了, 又再次高估自己那份一点都不吸引人的魅力或影响力,
之前我以为自己是那么的重要, 缺了我这角色让整个计划将会不欢而散..
现在才发现, 就算我去了也未必是完美的..
自己的第二决定否定了第一次的后悔,
做第二决定却忽略了第二次后悔的到来..
终于, 第二决定也给我带来了一些我更改第一决定的后悔..

曹操说过:"宁我负天下人,莫让天下人负我."
可我却还把他那名句掉转来用了那么久还不会清醒过来..
说实在的, 我也该把那些不害羞的性格收起来,
再做会一个什么都不好意识去要求的人...
大条道理用一些就好, 要不然, 自打嘴巴时可会贻笑大方...

忠于原著, 是每一位作者都告诉读者的一句话,
现在, 我也有必要把这句话烙印在心中..
以免悲剧的发生, 以免不悦的到来..

在这儿, 想分享一下这首歌..

孙燕姿的我不难过:

又站在你家的门口我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手但我已不在你心中

我真的懂你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过
别太伤痛我不难过这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞这会是我最后的宽容

终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手但我已不在你心中

我真的懂你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过
别太伤痛我不难过这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞这会是我最后的宽容

抱紧我再抱紧我
这一份感动请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头是非对错
就让它随风忘了所有过得比你快活

我真的懂你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
别再看着我说着你爱过别太伤痛
我不难过这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂

不要再说或许这是最好的结果
现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手离开你左右
我向前走这会是我真正的解脱

Tears

2010-11-14T23:59:00.003+08:00

眼淚成詩

我已經　已經把我傷口化作玫瑰
我的淚水　已經變成雨水早已輪迴
我已經　已經把對白留成了永遠
忘了天色　究竟是黑是灰

分手傷了誰　誰把它變美(not important in this post)
我的眼淚寫成了詩　已無所謂
讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉
因為回憶　總是美

我已經　已經把絕情變成了恭維
因為不配　你就忽然自卑說聲失陪
我已經　已經把沉默變成了懺悔
無路可退　只能無言以對

分手傷了誰　誰把它變美(not important in this post)
我的眼淚寫成了詩　已無所謂
讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉
因為回憶　總是美

分手傷了誰　誰把它變美(not important in this post)
我的眼淚寫成了詩一首　無所謂
讓你再回味　字不醉人人自醉

My neighbour is in coma now since few weeks ago,
she is a 50+ years old lady(maybe 60+),
One day, she back hometown and want to collect the rubber
from rubber tree field,
then she rode her motor bike and went out..
Afterall, she dint come back..

She was crash by a car(most probably) and,
nobody has any idea on who did this to her and
never send her to the hospital..

She was a good cook who always cook some food and
made some cookies for my family,
Share some local product
that she bought from her hometown with us..
But now...
No matter how,
I hope there is still a day for her
to see and feel the sunlight..
Hope her family can stay strong..

God bless her!

怀念

2010-11-01T19:11:00.003+08:00

人生短暂，要活得精彩，要珍惜时间。。。要知道过去了就不再！
今天在驾车上学途中，电台忽然播放了阿桑《寂寞在唱歌》。
曾几何时，我可是阿桑的小小歌迷也！

于是，一吃了晚饭，第一件事便是打开“酷我”去寻找阿桑给我们所留下的宝贵回忆。。。
原来呀，我也听过《温柔的慈悲》这首歌也！这可是一首不值得错过的歌！
讽刺的是，桃花依旧，人面全非！
阿桑，动人心弦的歌声，仿佛在讽刺上天的“慈悲”啊！
一副能唱出不平凡的嗓子，也就这么跟随那上天的“温柔”一同离去。。。
好一首讽刺的《温柔的慈悲》。。。

现在才发现，阿桑的《受了点伤》是一首我所熟悉的曲子。。。
纵使二人的声音有异，但各有千秋！
她们都把一首歌表达得淋漓尽致，可说是余音绕梁，听不厌倦！

最后，《一直很安静》这首歌也把阿桑那独特的歌声给留起来了！

好怀念，这一位，曾用她那犹如灵丹妙药的嗓子为我们带来感情丰富的歌曲！

发疯

2010-10-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

感情过于丰富? 为什么每一次都比别人多事呢?!
真的好想抹杀了一切感情细胞, 好让自己能够多关心自己...

无聊时, 我就在这儿发疯;
空闲时, 我都不好做功课;
神经失常时, 就好像你这样读着我无聊时写的神经论...

BORED!

2010-10-09T12:27:00.002+08:00

Feel like going out and enjoy the natural... Who can go with me... =S
I think, I should bring my mp3 and then go and hike... Thats the only thing I can bring i guess...

Result

2010-10-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

Semester 5 in TARC and in my result last semester is 4 A 1 B+...
The most disappointed thing is my Principle of Finance...
The most shameful thing I did in exam hall... I laugh and happy because the paper got 2 calculation question in this semester... I FELT GLAD and LAUGH IN MY HEART...
The most stupid thing was... I realised that I can't even solve one of the calculation question... So... I lost about 10marks on that calculation question which I FELT GLAD... So the paper FELT GLAD and I felt Go Laugh And Die(GLAD) now...

Anyway, if I was old LingGeeFoo, I think sure I complaining this and that.. Haha! But I just share with my frens that do not feel happy once u see there is something you like.. You might can't own or solve it! haha!

GPA 3.9 which I think is acceptable... So, 4 flat is still waiting me to chase IT! Once I got 4 flat, I should take some time for me to rest.. = =!

A Voice

2010-09-30T00:46:00.002+08:00

There is no 100% guarantee in life, sometimes a person tell you about THIS and ask you not to do this, but eventually you will realise he or she is going to do "THIS"...

Disappointed? Yes but not 100%.
Sad? No because it is not worth.
What to do next time? Open your eyes and accept the coming LIES.

My Way

2010-09-22T13:40:00.002+08:00

A 5 star sudoku is like a complicated problem.. The first stage that one can solve is only those numbers that hide on the surface. The second stage that one have to go through is hide beneath the surface which need one to dig a hole to see through it. The third stage is to complete the sudoku using the hints from first and second stage. So, a complicated problem that I cannot solve in my life should go through 3 stages too, first stage is to see, second stage is feel, and finally try to solve and or forget about it.

5 years

2010-09-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

Eason Chen sang a song named "10 years", and my heart played a full list of sad songs for 5 years...

Why the young gf is so stupid, immature, can't differentiate what is right and wrong until I did something that had become HIstory in my life...

Innocence? That time I was still young so I can forget about what I did 5 years ago easily?

I remember that, last time, I used to write my HIstory in my chinese paper... Even SPM I also wrote about it.. My chinese subject teacher also ask, "is there really a person I wrote exist?"
I dont think so that I could write it out here...

Well, thx for your little talk with me just now.. Even though it is short and I keep on waiting for your reply.. I know you are trying to help me... Hope to see a new suggestion from you.. Save the pity soul.. I beg you..

Regard,
true writer

Innocence

2010-09-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

Fall in love with this song!

Going to sing k on tuesday I think, Ngee Ming promised to post detail information on FB by today, I think he won't make it... AS USUAL.. LOL!

So lonely nowadays.. T,T

Hope.. (= I am talking nonsense.. =)

2010-08-19T23:41:00.004+08:00

Hope will only bring pains,
even though the family have awaited for about a year times,
when there is a hope, they can still pretending they can live a happy life,
or enjoying what they have now.

When hope gone,
everything will turn into a nightmare,
the smile with least joyness,
pretending act on face everyday,
all gone and go down again...

Past Tense

2010-08-14T13:26:00.003+08:00

I really hope that one day, one day that I will forget the past,
One day that I will lost all my past memories,
One day that I can free from what I always suffer,
One day that I truly having a new life,
I really hope that day will come!

I love the song JiShiBen......
Today it made me ... once again...

Speechless

2010-08-11T00:53:00.001+08:00

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轻言妄语

2010-08-06T19:03:00.003+08:00

坐在那冷冷的床上, 盖着我那暖暖的被单
毫无目的, 目不转睛望着那壁钟, 从分钟在六时, 望到指着八, 又望着望着指到十二....
下楼去吧?! 我只感陌生, 也不了解那种所谓的感觉是什么一回事
在房内却又无所事事, 乏味的生活让我想入非非
坦诺时钟停止前进, 生活进入历史, 到时又会是什么感觉?
等着一位永远不再回来的人来关心, 等着再次走入她生命中...

累与泪

2010-08-06T18:42:00.002+08:00

生活中, 当你做出第一个让步, 那便是一个恶梦的开始...
做了一个又一个的恶梦, 一次又一次的从梦想中惊醒, 开始觉得...
累了....

孤独

2010-08-06T15:17:00.003+08:00

坐在电脑前, 忽然感受到一阵阵心寒的感觉...
仿佛身处在一个没有半点人烟的地方...

Happiness/Sadness in front.. The truth behind...

2010-08-04T21:38:00.003+08:00

"我怕就怕失望
其余一切也不枉
所有代价通通舍割
心血都流光
抹去害怕撕掉稀罕
忘情才流到彼岸
我命里钻不出恩果
真假如浮云天也在看"

Ya, happiness or sadness is always show on the face...
But the truth will never appear is always behind the smile or cry..

Today, 3 stabs...
Hehehe... Can't smile anymore la... Can't laugh...
Wanna shout, nobody will hear... What to do?!
Write lo... But people will still know right? I am sure you do...

有意见却没得落实又有何用??
我没主见是你说的,
可是有的时候,
却不被接纳....
有主见变没意见....

现实啊现实...
我只能接受现实...
妥协...只能妥协???

不想让人看见的事实, 却被锐利的双眼看见...
一天以内,我看见两件不堪入目的事实...
第一, 一句真言加一个笑容
第二, 一只手对问题的回答
我该假装听而不闻与视而不见??
还是忘了所见所闻??

" 假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒 "

啦啦啦啦

2010-07-31T17:16:00.002+08:00

When i woke up today I read the newspaper...
I saw one article is regarding the traffic police saman a girl who talking on phone using handsfree..
The detail i think everyone can refer to the newspaper China Express last page of the A part...

Then a song come into my mind!!
马来西亚风俗好的国家... 啦啦啦啦
马来西亚有好多的警察... 啦啦啦啦
他们最爱突然跑出来说...
你已犯了马来西亚宪法...

心复杂的说

2010-07-04T18:56:00.002+08:00

人的内心，往往收藏着远比天上星星多的想法。。。
好想好想，统统哭诉好让我的每个朋友都了解。。。
说不出口，慢慢的久而久之变成了心痛的理由。。。
不理不睬，苦苦忍痛尽把不可能都变成有可能。。。

100th POST

2010-07-04T11:36:00.001+08:00

Finally reach 100... =)

Life still same..

Looking for changes..

More and more of changes I wanted to have..

无言

2010-07-04T11:33:00.003+08:00

Tired to see what I always saw,
Tired to hear what I heard everyday,
Tired to do what I did in the past,
Allow me to reborn,
I beg YOU..

Treat everyone fairly n equally...
I BEG YOU..

Wanna travel around the world, Alone or With Friends..

2010-06-27T02:34:00.003+08:00

I HOPE I'M A BILLIONAIRE! SO FREAKING BAD!!

I wanna go travel around the world so freaking bad!!!! BUT I need money(which i dont have now), time(too much to be spent now), energy(lots of extra and can't finish thats why i am still here for now) and parents' permission... Haha! China, Hong Kong, Japan, Korea... USA, UK, AUS, NZ and ......

I don't mind to mix with other culture.. Coz I won't mind what level or standard is used to measure the status of human..

4 Mixed( Happy + Angry + Sad + Guilty ) Dream

2010-06-19T12:20:00.004+08:00

Finally, I saw my aunt's face 2 hours ago, I wanted to see her in my dream since long long time ago.. The dream began with I received a msg that my aunt was sent to the hospital.. I rushed to the hospital and I saw 1 patient was heavily sick, she was help by the doctor to get onto the bed... I dunno who was the patient coz I duno who she was.. Beside the pity woman, a girl was standing beside her.. Then, I felt nervous and tried to call my aunt.. What I found was, the cellphone rang in front of me... My aunt, was the woman who I can't recognise before this.. I cried in my dream... I felt very happy coz I can finally see her again.. She was old and heavily sick this time.. When I tried to touch her face, I woke up and cried for real... This is the third time I cried after my dream...

Once I woke up, I tried not to sleep anymore because its 10 o'clock now.. Perhaps I was too tired, I slept again.. And now, I dream I go for a visit to my aunt after some time.. I can't found her anymroe.. This time, the girl who stand beside my aunt in the first dream was arguing with a nurse... I duno what the nurse done, but when i heard something like the nurse was done some mistake and my aunt was gone, I can't control myself and wanted to kill the nurse.. But I woke up not long after that coz I was too shocked with myself...

I still remember the first time I met her in my dream was the few weeks after she passed away, I saw her but she couldn't recognise me... This was the first time i cried after my dream... The second time I cried after my dream when I saw her back in my dream for 3 to 5 seconds..

I just can't forgive myself for the stupid mistake I made...

I AM _, This is the _

2010-06-11T00:47:00.004+08:00

If you ask me... am i SELling my FISH? I will ask you what cost you gonna pay to get the fish?!
When u tell me that u cant pay me a high cost, I will just ask you to go home with your money...

Then, the guy ask me why can't i just sell the fish to him with a cheaper price?!
I reply him:" this is the REAL ITalY fish...."

BE MYSELF

2010-06-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

What for I go and care for so many things?
There are actually uncountable things in this world that I have to care but why am I wanted to care part of it??
I should not keep any of it in my mind!!
Life is still going on even though I din't think of it for a second...

I should not care anything outside of me start from now?!
Maybe I should first take care all my own stuff first...
The first thing is, my right hand, I really can't bear it anymore.... HE is now GROWTH and have HIS own life!! I can't stop it from shaking HIMSELF anymore... What can I do!!!
I am tired... I should rest from now on...

Is this REAL??

2010-06-07T01:39:00.003+08:00

No matter what I said, it was useless...
No matter what I thought, it was pointless...
At last, Nobody could change anything that happened in the past...

This is True... and This is the Truth...

But there are methods that we can make use to halt the tragedy,
and there are steps that we must take in order to change, to make a better future...

Frens.. Help or Help by..

2010-06-02T21:10:00.004+08:00

The day I found myself on the isolated island, was the day I knew a friend so called Lonely...
I felt weird with HIM, but HE made me understood one value...

When HE is here with me, my life is still colourful...
When HE is gone from here, my life is only a black line and white paper and nothing else...

Just like a human standing in front the white background,
and only able to see a long wide road which is empty all the way in front of the human...

To my Dear Fren

2010-05-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

I found that this part of Nobody's Home is actually talking about you...
So i post it here hope that you can wake up or more people can find out what is actually happening...

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's faling behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place

Mentally Sick

2010-05-17T22:53:00.002+08:00

Last time i used to be acting in this way...
How I act last time? I can't tell... But it is very serious and caused a lot of unhappy incident...
These days, i found that the illness is back to me!
I need someone to Wake me Up!

掉了

2010-05-12T21:33:00.002+08:00

心疼的玫瑰　半夜還開著　找不到匆匆掉落的花蕊
回到現場卻已來不及　等待任何回音都不可得
微弱的風箏　冬天里飄著　回不去手中纏線的那個
沒有藍天　又何必去飛　怎么適合

黑色笑靨掉了　雪白眼淚掉了　該出現的所有表情瞬間掉了
瞳孔沒有顏色　結了冰的長河　回憶是最可怕的敵人

故事情節掉了　主角對白掉了　該屬于劇中的對腳戲也掉了
胸口沒有快樂　斷了翅的白鴿　不枯萎的藉口全掉了

曾經唱過的歌　分享過的笑聲　在心中不斷拉扯
想念不能承認　偷偷擦去淚痕　冬天過了還是會很冷

TELL ME WHY

2010-05-10T12:44:00.003+08:00

Just now, I saw my friend's post... I saw her friend's comment...
The comment make me think about what is the meaning of CARING actually is.
But I just really don't get it, the meaning of CARING!
Her friend is actually helping her not to stuck in the same problem, this is showing her friend caring her, but the girl just ask the friend to...
Here confused me... Is that mean the girl do not need any care from friend?
Then why is she posting All the problem she face??
Can anyone TELL ME WHY?!

Broga Hill 2

2010-05-09T18:52:00.004+08:00

I'm BACK!?
Its been a while, I left the blogging habit again but now...
I am back again!!!
Today, we went to broga hill again... This is the second time i went to broga hill...
Without sleeping the last whole night, is REALLY suffering for people who wanna go travel or have fun at somewhere....

OmG... I just, closed my eyes, without SWITCH OFF the machine,
and lie on my bed for about 30 to 45 minustes...
This is the only time that i feel REST...
Idk why, but I just can't sleep...

No matter what, this will never stop me from going to Broga Hill...
At last, this is an another event that successfully carried out by us!!!
(I skipped all the story happened there as in I am exhausted now...)

After Broga, HHC has to FLY back to his house to pass his car to his mom...
Here, this was the first time that I can't stop my car before the "COLOURFUL CLOUD"
and I brought another 2 cars to pass the "Red Cloud"
as we can't stop ourselves when it turned from "Green Cloud" to "Red Cloud" in a short blink...

Then when HHC gone, we went to a restaurant.. Chinese restaurant...
To celebrate Mother Day?!
Ops, have to dinner now... Perhaps, someone can continue my story in their blog or FB there?...

礼物

2010-04-18T22:28:00.003+08:00

於可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻阅过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋
走一步又一步我才发现绕了个圈
走了好几年又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别毫不避违那不安的传言

但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好“体贴” 陪我回忆把过往走一遍

穿了这些年难免会有污点就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
乾涸的眼再挤不出一点咸

爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了为什麼我却只想要哭
你说做自己吧我们都做回自己哦~
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫
终於分别宿命一样准确
可笑到想要你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑 鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号只有你能明了
过了这一夜希望全忘掉

Nobody's Home

2010-04-13T23:02:00.006+08:00

When you need me, I am there...

When I need you, you hide somewhere...

When you want to find me, you call my nickname...

When I find you, you call my full name...

I feel like.....

I couldn't tell you,

Why I felt that way,

I felt it everyday...

LIFELESS

2010-04-09T11:46:00.005+08:00

My life is so lifeless...

I realize that everyday, wake up in the morning the first thing to do is FB...

Other than FB, I enjoy my breakfast together with HK drama...

Then, I go and study and sometimes hang out with friends...

Is that all of my life?

I need some outdoor activities which are meaningful...

Like, go for a hike at countryside...

But I feel weird if i go alone... Is there anyone interested??

Rather than you stay at home and only FB all the time,
how about have a walk around the countryside?

I feel bored of the country life...

I feel bored of the malaysian culture...

I want to get a new life!!!

Perhaps I can change my life soon...

FOOD

2010-04-03T18:28:00.003+08:00

I NEED TO EAT before I TAKE MEDICINE...

Who is going to accompany me to eat at somewhere?!....

Haiz... Yesterday gave me a lot of hopes, today.....

Everyone have to accompany their family...

My family backed hometown...

Is that I should follow them back to hometown???

Mei Yen told me just now before she off msn...
SHE IS GOING TO EAT SEAFOOD... THEN PLUS A BYE.....

This make me feel so sad and lonely~~~

Anyway, lonely is always with me... And I like the feel...

Btw, I would like to thank to one person who FORCED ME to see doctor...
Now I realised that HHC is able to influence my decision...
Otherwise, I guess I am still sleeping at home....
Thanks ya.. =.=

My Neck

2010-04-03T18:22:00.002+08:00

I CANnot say that I am sick,
as I am still able to do everything i want.

I wonder what is the thing on my left neck,
I feel like wanna cut my whole left neck down.

Oh my F GOD... Just one week left, then i will be sitting the final exam. Why the chosen person is ME?

When I am writing this, I suddenly hear a voice from my frIeNd, MEI YEN CHXX, she said is the thing on my left neck is from a PRINCESS... OMG!!!!! I hope that everyone can give me some rest on this MATTER~....

Finally, What I wanna SAY!!

HELP ME.........

Sick?

2010-04-03T15:17:00.003+08:00

Lazy to update...

Stay Tuned...

BuLLsHIt

2010-03-29T17:54:00.006+08:00

When the day I promised myself not to say a vulgar word is actually a day that i lied...

Why I say so???

Because nobody is perfect...
Everybody is still doing the same thing even though they promised or said that they will change...

Promises or Talk,
is actually nothing.... But just some bullshit from oneself....

I hate people bullshit, but I am also one of the bullshit-er...

What to do? This is life...

Cxxx Pxx and Lx Yxxx... When they are having PMS will automatically turn them into VW Queen... Especially yesterday and today....

Life, always full of bullshit-er like me and YOU...

What YOU can do is...

Become one of us... A bullshit-er...

Where should WE GO?!

2010-03-28T20:11:00.004+08:00

Well, here are some suggestions that our CLASS TRIP should go for....

First choice - Pulao Pangkor
(jungle treking, beach, catch CRAB... and a lot of activities that u can plan)

Second choice - Genting Highland
(Sleep, Games, GAMBLE, ..........)

Third choice - A Famosa
(Waterpark, travel around Malacca, EAT EAT EAT, ZZZ)

Fourth choice - Port Dickson
(Fun water activities, .............................................................. idk....)

Fifth choice - Your Suggestion...

Sleepy Day + Earth Hour

2010-03-28T00:56:00.004+08:00

1 hour, is this enough?

I THINK SO... It is enough for certain people... But NOT ME...

Today, originally wanna complete the presentation slide show part that going to happen on this Thursday... But, we din't...

One of the reasons is,

I slept the whole time when they are doing.... Someone should slap me earlier so that I wake up and help!!... (means next time can slap me as heavy as ur wish when you think you should wake me up...)

Today I FEEL superior DOWN... So So So So So EMO....

Perhaps...

I might be stressed up... Someone HELP me....

About Case 39

2010-03-24T22:46:00.004+08:00

Wanna make yourself feel scared in the lonely night?

Watch CASE 39......

I'm scared after watching the movie, so if you think you are a braver, you can watch this...

Anyway, if you choose not to watch(especially NGEE MING), that means you are scared of the movie, so what you can do is try to overcome your fear by watching this movie as your starting point!!!

"This is just a new beginning of your life" by ..........
(someone who scared me)

Sem 3 which left only 20%......

2010-03-23T15:58:00.004+08:00

Just CUT my hair....

OR!!

I should say,

FINALLY!!!!!! I CUT MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My new hair style.... But only limited for today...... Because... I do not have much time to set my hair every morning.. >.<

Well, after i cut my hair, everything like go on smoothly...

For example,

just now, EVERY RED light Turn GREEN~~ Green is really nice colour you know!?(when u r in traffic jam... HEHE....)

Well Well, feel so sleepy... But luckily i still got mood and some little energy that is very scarce....

Before I go and sleep... I wanna repeat one sentence here!!!

I WILL NEVER SAY ANY VULGAR WORD ANYMORE!!!!!!!!

(until further notice.. KEKE...)